times.

I know I need you
I need to love you
I'd love to see you
but its been so long

I long to feel you
I feel this need for you
I need to hear you
is that so wrong?

now you pull me near you
when we're close I feel you
still I'm afraid to tell you
all that I've done

are you done forgiving?
can you look past my pretending?
I'm so tired of defending all I've become
what have I become?

but I hear you say
my love is over
its underneath
its inside
its in between

the times that you doubt me
and when you cant feel
the times that you question
is this for real?

the times that you're broken
the times that you mend
the times that you hate me
the times that you bend

my love is over
its underneath
its inside
its in between

times that you're healing
and when your heart breaks
the times that you feel like
you've fallen from grace

the times that you're hurting
times that you heal
times you go hungry
and are tempted to steal

in times of confusion
in chaos and pain
I'm there in your sorrow
under the weight of your shame

I'm there in your heartache
I'm there through your storm
my love I will keep you
by my power alone

I don't care where you've fallen
or where you have been
I'll never forsake you
my love never ends

it never ends

~times ---> mike donehey
© 2008 songs of bug
from the album: over and underneath

enough said.
this is written so beautifully,
it overwhelms me.
and I think about the Father's love,
and I feel like crying
crying of the joy I find in Him.

dive deep.

one.

do you see? do I?
the pain, hurt, and suffering...
the hopeless, helpless poverty
do we close our eyes
and fold our hands
to what's really going on?

but I say:
I am only one, what can I do?
I am so young, who can I help?
I have so little
it's someone else's job...
but if not you, who will?

babies crying, children dying
people lost in the sea of nothing
and here I sit living as I please
refusing to do anything
that doesn't benefit me

and I continue to call out:
I am only one, what can I do?
I am so young, who can I help?
I have so little
it's someone else's job...
but if you don't, who will?

who will feed them
when they're starving?

who will cloth them
when they're freezing?

who will love them
when they're dying?


who will do it,
if not I?

conclusions.

God in every situation, you just have to search a bit more sometimes.

so, at the private Christian school I attend, in my Spanish class, one part of the required Biblical integration is a weekly memory verse that you must either recite or write out depending on the week or length of the verse.

the first week of school we had a short, easy verse that is a familiar one in English. then the second week came and I wasn't so ready for this one, even though I knew it perfectly in English. each time I tried to repeat, "porque yo sé muy bien..." I would find myself saying the previous week's verse. I soon became annoyed. each attempt at, "porque yo sé muy bien," led to, "todo lo puedo..."

finally I just sat down and began thinking about the words to the verse I was supposed to memorize..."porque yo sé muy bien los planes que tengo para ustedes afirma el Señor..." (Jeremías 29:11) and even as I did my mind kept skipping back to, "todo lo puedo..." by this time I was very annoyed, but then, in an effort to calm myself, I began to think about those words themselves...

...todo lo puedo en Cristo que me fortalece...

hmm, funny, eh?

so I leave you with this note:

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. ~Philippians 4:13


dive deep..

humbling thoughts.

Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are.

~1 Corinthians 1:26-28