mystified.

Jesus loves me.
this i know.
but not just because
the bible tells me so.

love of my life
look deep in my eyes
there you will find what you need

give me your life
the lust and the lies
the past you're afraid i might see
you've been running away from me

you're my beloved lover
i'm yours
death shall not part us
it's you i died for
for better or worse
forever we'll be
my love it unites us
and it binds you to me
it's a mystery

love of my life
look deep in my eyes
there you will find what you need

i'm the giver of life
i'll clothe you in white
my immaculate bride you will be
come running home to me

you've been a mistress, my wife
chasing lovers that won't satisfy
won't you let me make you my bride
you will drink of my lips
and you'll taste new life

~beloved---> mike donehey
© 2008 songs of bug
from the album: over and underneath

he loves me.
me, with my crappy, sarcastic attitudes.
me, with my panicking nature.
me, with all failures that never fail to repeat themselves.
me, with my intentional disobedience.
me, with my addictions to this time, generation, and culture.
me, with my priorities out of order.
me, with my constant testing of grace.
me, with my self-centered and conceited nature.

me.

me, i am loved.
by the King.
the Lord.
the Saviour.
the Redeemer.
the Creator.
the King.

why?
i don't deserve it.
i didn't do anything, ever, to deserve it.
i won't do anything, ever, to deserve it.
i can't.
but still, ever so calmly,
that still, small voice
calls to me, forgiving me.
of my constant mistakes.
you gave the ultimate gift,
salvation.

indescribable.

and i'm your beloved?
yes, i run to lovers that don't satisfy.
you want me to come running home to you.
forgive me when i don't.
i'll drink of your lips.
and taste new life.

hallelujah.
God, he reigns.

not to us.

look at the way the flowers bloom for you
they want to show you their beauty, Lord
running waters dance
you and I romance

unto you be all the glory
unto you be all the glory

the angels dance around you
the earth, it sings about you
open up the heavens Lord
let your kingdom come to earth

my praises all surround you
my soul cant dance without you
open up the heavens Lord
let your kingdom come to earth.

~my romance---> rick pino
© 2003 rick pino
from the album: weapons of warfare

yupp, weapons of warfare. i love this guy...haha
we're told that if we dont adore,
rocks will cry out.
well, as for me
no stinkin rock
is gonna take my opportunity.
but they are praising
the flowers open to show him their beauty
their beauty- he created their beauty
the flowers are opening to show him
his own beauty...

cool, huh?

east to west is pretty far...

love unfailing
overtaking my heart
you take me in
finding peace again
fear is lost in all you are

and I would give the world to tell your story
cause I know that you've called me
I know that you've called me
I've lost myself for good within your promise
I won't hide it
I won't hide it

Jesus I believe in you
and I would go
to the ends of the earth
to the ends of the earth

for you alone are the Son of God
and all the world will see
that you are God
that you are God

~to the ends of the earth---> joel houston & marty sampson
© 2002 hillsong publishing
from the album: hope

so, recently, peace hasn't exactly been found in abundance in my life.
recently, the unfailing love of Christ has found me again, taking me in.
fear has been lost.
peace has been found.
I've rediscovered this love, and I would give the world to tell just one person of the ultimate blessing.
because, I have been called.
I've lost myself in Him.
for good.
there's no turning back.
and I'll hold nothing back.
I won't hide it.
because I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ.
and I not only would, but I will go to the ends of the earth.
the ends of the earth.
for my Savior and Redeemer is God alone.
that everyone would see.
that Christ is Lord.
He is God.
because not one should perish.
no, not one.

thanks be to God.
for his indescribable gift,

salvation.

God, He reigns.

SNOW!!

yupp, snow!! today! snow!

haha, I'm from texas...no, I don't ride a horse to school...like I was saying, texas, born and raised. so this whole snow thing is kinda weird. miracle, even. it's really beautiful to watch giant flakes fall from the sky... :D

and,
just in case you were wondering.

no, it didnt stick to the ground.
but it doesnt matter!
it snowed!

2012?

so, apparently, the world will end in 2012...well anyways, since I'm part of the class of '13, (represent!!) at my graduation party, we're going to rent the movie 2012 and watch it, and laugh hysterically. psych. maybe we won't laugh hysterically. but we'll still laugh. ;)

Lord, send more people like C.S. Lewis...

God knew you before you were born.
even back before time began!!
e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g
about you was predestined to be
and the Father knew this,
he kept this in mind
as he formed you in your mother's womb.
your smile,
your fingerprints,
your tongueprints,
the size of your pinky toe
the size of your big toe
the number of hairs on your head the day of your 37th birthday at 3:06 pm,
even your laugh.

God, who foresaw your tribulation has specifically formed you to go through it, not without pain, but without stain.

oh.

my.

gosh.

that quote's from C.S. Lewis.
neat guy...
can't wait to talk with him :D :P

God, he reigns.

wash me, cleanse me, re-create me...

Is any one of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise. Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.

~james 5:13-16

far, far too often we over-analyze Scripture, when it's written plainly. I love this passage because it clearly states, "pray, sing, pray, confess, forgiven, healed."

well, maybe not so much. but we need to understand it is, actually, ok, to take the Word at face value.

cool, huh?

dive deep.

unspeakable.

He loved us.

sit.
stand.
empty.
unattended.

He lived for us.

go on.
stand.
walk.
exit.
walk across
the pavement.
unlock.
climb in.
buckle.
sigh.
engage
the engine.
drive.

He fought for us.

stand.
walk.
exit.
close
the door.
unlock.
climb in.
buckle.
engage
the engine.
drive.
slow.
stop.
turn.
park.
cut
the engine.
sigh.
climb out.
lock.
walk across
the pavement.
enter.

greet.
sit.
pretend to
listen.
pretend to
sing.
pretend to
praise.
pretend to
worship.
pretend to
pray.
pretend to
love.
pretend to
live.

for
Him.

go on.
stand.
walk.
exit.
walk across
the pavement.
unlock.
climb in.
buckle.
sigh.
engage
the engine.
and
drive
away
as
if
it
were
nothing.

He died for us.

and
we
painstakingly
do
absolutely
nothing.

when the
only
reason
for church
is
the name
of the church,
isn't it
time
for a
simple change?

seeing
past
our
selfishness,
our
pride,
our
temptations,
scales,
weights,
sins,
chains,

and

seeing

God?

happy thoughts. :)

today is All Saints Eve.
today is also Reformation Day.
tomorrow is All Saints Day.

enough said.
:D

always will I seek the glory of it all.

did you rise the sun for me?
or paint a million stars that I might know your majesty?
is your voice upon the wind?
is everything I've known marked with my Maker's fingerprints?

breathe on me
let me see
your face
ever I will seek you

cause all you are is all I want
always
draw me close
in your arms
oh God
I wanna be with you

can I feel you in the rain?
abandon all I am to have you capture me again
let the earth resound with praise
can you hear as all creation lives to glorify one name?

breathe on me
let me see
your face
ever I will seek you

cause all you are is all I want
always
draw me close
in your arms
oh God
I wanna be with you

I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
ever I will seek you
I wanna be with you

cause all you are is all I want
always
draw me close
in your arms
oh God
I wanna be with you

oh God
I wanna be with you

~always ---> mia fieldes
© 2003 hillsong publishing
from the album: more than life

dear Lord,
allow me to be humbled so that I can abandon all I am to have you capture me again. while you're at it, merciful God, set your Holy Church on fire. give us one pure and holy passion so that we may shine your light throughout your universe living for Your glory, holding nothing back for the glory of Your name. allow us to become so undignified that we can shout for the glory of God in every place, invite us, woo us, so that we can be lost in you. like one of those impossible hedge mazes in europe or whatever. just like that. :)

thanks.
love,
robert.

rescue me.

Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge. Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me. Surely you desire truth in the inner parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place. Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice. Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will turn back to you. Save me from bloodguilt, O God, the God who saves me, and my tongue will sing of your righteousness. O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise. You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. In your good pleasure make Zion prosper; build up the walls of Jerusalem. Then there will be righteous sacrifices, whole burnt offerings to delight you; then bulls will be offered on your altar.

Crea en mí, oh Dios, un corazón limpio, y renueva la firmeza de mi espíritu.

O Dieu! crée en moi un coeur pur, Renouvelle en moi un esprit bien disposé.

O DIO crea in me un cuore puro e rinnova dentro di me uno spirito saldo.

Schaffe in mir, Gott, ein reines Herz und gib mir einen neuen, gewissen Geist.

قَلْباً نَقِيّاً اخْلُقْ فِيَّ يَااللهُ وَرُوحاً مُسْتَقِيماً جَدِّدْ فِي دَاخِلِي.

Сърце чисто сътвори в мене, Боже. И дух постоянен обновявай вътре в мене.

mæt mig med Fryd og Glæde, lad de Ben, du knuste, juble

Lát mig heyra fögnuð og gleði, lát kætast beinin sem þú hefir sundurmarið.

하나님이여 내 속에 정한 마음을 창조하시고 내 안에 정직한 영을 새롭게 하소서

Cria em mim, ó Deus, um coração puro, e renova em mim um espírito estável.


Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.



~psalm 51

dive deep.

generation's hopee.

But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me. Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light. Because I have sinned against him, I will bear the LORD's wrath, until he pleads my case and establishes my right. He will bring me out into the light; I will see his righteousness. Then my enemy will see it and will be covered with shame, she who said to me, "Where is the LORD your God?" My eyes will see her downfall; even now she will be trampled underfoot like mire in the streets.

~micah 7:7-10

*Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light. --->here I find this so beautiful. satan, you do not rule my life. you have no power to dance on my head. you have no spot in my life, for I have been bought with the blood of Christ Jesus. get thee back behind me!! yeah, durr, I'm down. I've sinned. but I'm walking in God's will. though I have fallen, I will rise.

our generation seems to fall so effortlessly into drugs, alcohol, pornography, sex, suicide, jealousy, anger, greed, lust, apathy, and so much more...

but as for me, I will rise. we will overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony, everyone, overcome!


dive deep.

so my soul longeth after thee.

Still, if you set your heart on God and reach out to him, if you scrub your hands of sin and refuse to entertain evil in your home, you'll be able to face the world unashamed and keep a firm grip on life, guiltless and fearless. You'll forget your troubles; they'll be like old, faded photographs. Your world will be washed in sunshine, every shadow dispersed by dayspring. Full of hope, you'll relax, confident again; you'll look around, sit back, and take it easy. Expansive, without a care in the world, you'll be hunted out by many for your blessing. But the wicked will see none of this. They're headed down a dead-end road with nothing to look forward to — nothing.

~job 11:13-20

neverending.

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

~isaiah 40:28-31

times.

I know I need you
I need to love you
I'd love to see you
but its been so long

I long to feel you
I feel this need for you
I need to hear you
is that so wrong?

now you pull me near you
when we're close I feel you
still I'm afraid to tell you
all that I've done

are you done forgiving?
can you look past my pretending?
I'm so tired of defending all I've become
what have I become?

but I hear you say
my love is over
its underneath
its inside
its in between

the times that you doubt me
and when you cant feel
the times that you question
is this for real?

the times that you're broken
the times that you mend
the times that you hate me
the times that you bend

my love is over
its underneath
its inside
its in between

times that you're healing
and when your heart breaks
the times that you feel like
you've fallen from grace

the times that you're hurting
times that you heal
times you go hungry
and are tempted to steal

in times of confusion
in chaos and pain
I'm there in your sorrow
under the weight of your shame

I'm there in your heartache
I'm there through your storm
my love I will keep you
by my power alone

I don't care where you've fallen
or where you have been
I'll never forsake you
my love never ends

it never ends

~times ---> mike donehey
© 2008 songs of bug
from the album: over and underneath

enough said.
this is written so beautifully,
it overwhelms me.
and I think about the Father's love,
and I feel like crying
crying of the joy I find in Him.

dive deep.

one.

do you see? do I?
the pain, hurt, and suffering...
the hopeless, helpless poverty
do we close our eyes
and fold our hands
to what's really going on?

but I say:
I am only one, what can I do?
I am so young, who can I help?
I have so little
it's someone else's job...
but if not you, who will?

babies crying, children dying
people lost in the sea of nothing
and here I sit living as I please
refusing to do anything
that doesn't benefit me

and I continue to call out:
I am only one, what can I do?
I am so young, who can I help?
I have so little
it's someone else's job...
but if you don't, who will?

who will feed them
when they're starving?

who will cloth them
when they're freezing?

who will love them
when they're dying?


who will do it,
if not I?

conclusions.

God in every situation, you just have to search a bit more sometimes.

so, at the private Christian school I attend, in my Spanish class, one part of the required Biblical integration is a weekly memory verse that you must either recite or write out depending on the week or length of the verse.

the first week of school we had a short, easy verse that is a familiar one in English. then the second week came and I wasn't so ready for this one, even though I knew it perfectly in English. each time I tried to repeat, "porque yo sé muy bien..." I would find myself saying the previous week's verse. I soon became annoyed. each attempt at, "porque yo sé muy bien," led to, "todo lo puedo..."

finally I just sat down and began thinking about the words to the verse I was supposed to memorize..."porque yo sé muy bien los planes que tengo para ustedes afirma el Señor..." (Jeremías 29:11) and even as I did my mind kept skipping back to, "todo lo puedo..." by this time I was very annoyed, but then, in an effort to calm myself, I began to think about those words themselves...

...todo lo puedo en Cristo que me fortalece...

hmm, funny, eh?

so I leave you with this note:

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. ~Philippians 4:13


dive deep..

humbling thoughts.

Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are.

~1 Corinthians 1:26-28

happy day.

so this is a song that has really spoken to me ever since I attended ECHO conference back in late july over in dallas at watermark church. great facility...

the greatest day in history, death is beaten
you have rescued me
sing it out, Jesus is alive
the empty cross, the empty grave
life eternal you have won the day
shout it out, Jesus is alive
He's alive

ohh happy day, happy day
you washed my sin away
ohh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
forever I am changed

when I stand, in that place
free at last, standing face to face
I am yours, Jesus, you are mine
endless joy, perfect peace
earthly pain finally will cease*
celebrate, Jesus is alive
he's alive

ohh happy day, happy day
you washed my sin away
ohh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
forever I am changed

ohh what a glorious day
what a glorious way
that you have saved me
ohh was a glorious day
what a glorious name

ohh happy day, happy day
you washed my sin away
ohh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
forever I am changed

~happy day ---> tim hughes, ben cantelon
© 2006 thankyou music
from the album: holding nothing back

pain; suffering; things of this world, day, and age < God's love, grace and forgiveness; heaven; eternity.

dive deep.

new blog...

so here's my new blog, I'm planning on updating this frequently between busy schedules...

this probably won't be what you will hope it to be.

I'm different from the norm, so if you don't like that, tough.

this will end up having song lyrics, prayers, sermons, and scriptures that have spoken to me. and like in the scientific world, scientists have the need to tell others about their findings. I, too, am like that.

oh yeah, I'm a Christian. I believe in the Trinity, that Jesus Christ is the Son of God, he came two thousand years ago, lived a perfect life, died on the cross for our sins....

and then he ROSE from the grave on the third day, just as he said he would. He ascended into heaven to the Father's right hand, and has sent his Holy Spirit to us, for all of us. If we just believe.

so, that's me. have fun!

dive deep.